Lots of parents are getting their children ready for going back to school. Some children will be excited, some nervous, some happy and some sad. For my children going back to school is complicated. They are not nervous. They are not scared.
THEY ARE TERRIFIED
The girls have known too much change in their lives, too much loss, too much fear and too much rejection. Going into the unknown can only fill them with all consuming fear. Of course we adoptive parents know that exposing our children to these experiences develops some resilience. They will survive and know that they survived. But to see how they suffer to get there is tough for me as their mum and even tougher for them to experience.
So what have I done to help them? I gave the new teachers pupil profiles for each of my girls detailing their behaviours and suggesting ways to deal with them. The girls had lots of extra transition work before the holidays. They also did extra visits to their new classrooms and met their new teachers several times. And I had a long planning meeting with eldest’s new teachers. Youngest was given handmade presents from her key teachers. Over the holidays we have had postcards and letters from old and new teachers. They have had transition books to look at over the holidays with photos of the new teachers and classrooms. I have gently talked about school and what will be the same and what will be different. We have thought about the nice things at school. And we have talked about what their bodies are telling them about how they are feeling.
And so we are here. Tomorrow they go back to school. You can imagine what the last few days have been like. We have had the full range of behaviours and emotions. I won’t share the details but they certainly have been struggling with all those big feelings and I am the only safe person to direct them at.
Today I have been quietly packing their bags. There seems to be a lot of stuff! Between the two of them they will be taking back:
Transitional items – Small has my teddy with her at all times in school. I’ve slept with it all summer so it definitely smells of me!
Photos of me and grandparents
Visual timetable cards which school lent me over the holidays
Chewigems and spare Chewigems
Spare underwear and socks as both wet in school
Emergency snacks – the girls keep a snack bar in their books bags at all times so they know there’s always enough food for them
Notes in coat pockets – telling them I love them
I think that’s it! I’ve done all I can to prepare them. I hope that school are equally as prepared to play their part tomorrow and that the girls have some positive experiences on ther first day back.